comp is down. am on my nintendo dsi right now.

got some job leads in vegas. will prolly be in town for em monday. wanted tto do it friday but have to pack up and move an rv o.o

i cant wait to get back to vegas... i wanted to help... not give up my life and freedom.

all in all though its not bad. just alot to get done. its keeping me busy which is good.

Trying to be happy... trying to see the silver fucking lining to every cloud. Yeah it took 5 HOURS to get my car back but the people were all nice, so it wasn't a bad experience. Yeah Im tired but the car is fixed now...

...then I get a bill saying that I owe $1000 immediately because no payments have been made and I know that is full of shit. [On top of the $489 bill that is current]

What the fuck do you want universe? You want me to turn back into a self destructive ball of hate who would rather see everyone around me suffer because of how much I hate them again? I wanted out of that life, I wanted away from that life. That life only exists when I play Envy now.... or at least I thought it did.

I'm just going to fucking pay off the car and try to put away what money I can. FC is looking like its not an option cause I won't be able to afford it.

All I can do is keep commissions open and hope that its enough to keep my head above water.

Well in my efforts of PAYING OFF debts and bills at the same time...  this is the final week in November that is hell week.  I'll be lucky if I have $10 come monday.  However... next week I can finally start to put money away!!!!!!!!   Fucking FINALLY.  Just knowing that makes the fact that this week having no money is not -as- bad as it would normally be.

More job applications.

I got the two new FMA manga the other day which I really should NOT have done... but ya know what... I'll scrounge and make do.  I wanted something for ME.    Got an Arceus at Toys r Us with Red last night.    Much Pokemon geeking out was had.  

May have a new room to set up on Chatstudio here soon.  w00t.  Its growing which is a good thing.   I'll feel bad if I ever start up my own chat site cause I know 90% of the rooms would go with me.  Buuuut that requires $500 for the software alone, and my own internet line for the server, so that's a long way down the road.

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